Its 11.05pm.I wanted to sleep..get into my slumberland..but,my stomach doesn't allow it.So what I do..online online..games..music to the max.Besides,my mind is full of thoughts.My collegemate,jia sin,suddenly buzz me in msn.''Hei,do u know tat legal method results r out?''...I need to read tat sentence twice before it get registered into my mind.LEGAL METHOD RESULTS OUT???WTH???Y????
Today is my last day of semester break.LAST DAY.OMG.And I get the news that I'm gonna face my result tomorrow morning.I seriously loathe it.OK.Cold sweat sending chills down my spine.Damn unpleasant cold feeling.Worst still,She continued..''20 ppl failed.''WHAT THE HELLL????????????????
I thought legal method is a subject that's easy to pass..y 20 students in our class will fail..???? My mind was full of uncertainties..So I asked..''How do u know??..Did u know ur result then?'' I was waiting for immediate reply..I called weiyee..she's SO SHOCKED..what an unpleasant news man..I was wondering..would I pass..?? or would I fail..?? OR borderline pass..?? Then flashback.Ok.Section A..out of 10 questions..3 questions not sure..so I would lose around 10 marks from Section A.Section B.Damn.It's bout AG V HOLLEY case.I hope what I wrote was right.Hope So.I remembered what I wrote..basically juz threw out everything that came into my mind tat time..did memorize some judgments..OK.I dun wanna think bout it anymore.Grabbed my shopaholic book and started reading.Read a few sentences..then tat idiotic news kept on bugging me.Bugger.OK.Called caroline.Told her bout it.Shocked too.Shit.No mood to watch my favourite programme.The Ultimate Victory.Haih.Heard the laughters from my siblings downstairs.That funny show.Coincidentally,ainun msg me.''M.y,our class start 2moro right?''Haih..so I called her too..and told her bout d news..Sighing...
Caroline called.She told me she called carole..(our senior)and that she said..23 students from our class failed.WTH???????????????? Suddenly 20..then 16..then 23 students failed??? Haiyo what is the exact number..?????.............................................................................................................................................................
My happy mood falters,then slowly disappears.I'M SUPPOSED TO ENJOY TO THE MAX TODAY.WTH MAN...the gay feeling of going to banting this tues,and the movie plan(of watching spiderman) for wed..GONE.
Florence suddenly chat with me in MSN at 11.30 pm.She wrote:
''MINYUEN!''
''HAF U HEARD?''
''CAROLINE!''
''DID SHE MSG U?!''
''OH MY GOD''
I'm like paused for a moment.Dunno what to reply her.She continued''
''u sure carole wasnt bluffing?!''
''NOBODY FAILS LEGAL METHOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1''
''EVEN MISS QUAH SAYS SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!''
''DONT TELL ME OUR COURSEWORK SO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!''
Then set yee also told me that she's scared..argh.I'M ALSO VERY SCARED AND WORRIED.Reminds me of MS QUAH's words''There's a binding precedent for legal method..which is A or B+''
OK...I went to read my cuz's blog.Oh..!April 28 was yesterday!!!How come I didn't realise??? I took a glimpse at my phone.29 April.Oh shit...no wonder my mum insisted of going back to malacca..no wonder..but my dad disagreed.He said we r gonna go back next mth..so no point going back this week..OK.
April 28..is the day where everybody would make a point to go back to malacca,ujong pasir,to gather and have a simple reunion.For a dinner.It's on this date where my grandparents celebrated their sweet& lovely marriage for 50 years.Golden anniversary.Apr 28 for this year was horrible then.No reunion in Ujong Pasir.No laughters,no cheers(yam seng~~),no meeting lovely relatives& cousins,no karaoke,no sleeping together wif my lovely cousins,no eating br8fast and lunch and dinner wif them,no chats and gossips,not knowing how are they faring.It's BAD.I missed them like hell.Didn't manage to go back for grandpa's 100 death days because I'm having my exam.Which means that I wouldnt be able to meet meixuan,hongwei,peiyi,weiyi,my uncles and aunties...
So,from now on,Apr 28 would no longer be a reunion day for us.Unpredictable.Really unexpected.And I thought of my grandma.How is she now?? Even though she sounds ok on the phone..(as I talked to her two days ago)but I wouldnt really know if she's ok.I got a feeling that she will be lonely.Dont know y.The memories of seeing her being so depressed really hurts.I had never seen my grandma so so depressed when my family and I turned up in front of her house.Not even once.In my life.And neither did I see my relatives being so damn quiet while we arrived.They were folding the money papers.As i walked passed the green gate,I saw ah gong's photo surrounded by flowers.There's an unusual mood.Really really weird.As I lighted up the joystick,I took a glimpse on ah ma sitting on the sofa,with her teared eyes.She looked so fatigue.Then I heard my mum burst out crying.My bros and sis were very quiet.Not the usual them.They would usually be jumping here and there..like monkeys.It's about 11pm at that time.
I still cannot get adapt to it.It's like when I went back to Ujong pasir during CNY,I don't see ah gong waiting for us outside,opening the door,with a smile plastered on his face..anymore.So so weird.So used to greet him first.Then my dad would be telling my little siblings''Dont rush to play har..muz greet ah gong and ah ma first..muz ask them how r u..???bla bla...''
And on February my dad told my siblings..''Dont ask ah ma how r u doing,just tell her-stay healthy.''There's an awkward situation.Just don't know how to describe here.
It's 12.14 am now.My class starts tomorrow.Have to face my results.
Confusion.